May 2010
I’m sick of normalcy. I can’t take it.
I don’t want to live in this house. in fact, I don’t want to live in ANY house. I want to live in a fucking van, with 4 other dudes, sweaty as fuck, all the time (for some fucked up reason), going to sleep in one state, and waking up in another. I want to have something different every day, and I want someone to meet every day. I...
You’re no child, and your energy makes you look and act a lot older than you are. That’s not a bad thing — your wisdom is in high demand right now!
-Scorpio horoscope for yesterday
The astrological influence at work now is not very powerful, but it does incline you to feel a bit restless and dissatisfied with your present situation. You feel limited and restricted by...
I love the fuck out of everyone in my band.
seriously.
I love how open we all are to different ideas, and trying new things, and our sound has NO boundaries (other than the pop/metal boundary) and everyone is just…genuine as hell, and has experience and loves the music as much as I do, and has a connection with it, and feels it, the same way I do.
I am glad we want to mature. I am glad...
music isn’t supposed to fit a certain mold. Music doesn’t have to sound “Right” to the ears, for it to be something good, or something someone will enjoy. You’ll be appreciated more by people who actually care about music, than people who want to hear something nice.
After playing in my band for a while now, and reflecting on the music we have written, I spent too...
you mean, so so so so so so much to me.
There’s not much more else to say.
21 days.
Don’t fuck this up.
“Q: What does Zack Hames look for in a guy/girl?
A: Stars and planets”
– Sam Conrad
I think I have anger issues.
legitimately. I don’t think I would ever hurt anyone though, or take it out on a person. which is probably a really good thing.
Dear Girls,
LIFE ISN’T FUCKING PERFECT AND IT’S NOT GOING TO WORK OUT PERFECTLY.
FUCK.
especially when it comes to guys.
If a guy texts you a lot, then all of the sudden, STOPS, and you get pissed about it, DON’T, i repeat, DON’T, be like,
“I’m going to see how long it takes for him to text me.” “*pout, pout pout*
Why, in the FUCKING...
days like these give me hope.
(Days like these make me wish you could see for yourself.)
I’m crawling out of the hole again. slowly, but it’s happening. I’m sure the day school is out, I’ll be like…perfect in terms of happiness. No more stress.
no more bullshit.
Come on, Summer hurry your shit!
I just broke my window.
I hate this fucking house.
I hate not having music equipment at my house. I can’t write/record/do anything by myself anymore, and I really want to.
...
Don't stop talking to me, I haven't been... →
I’m just going to start this off with saying, sometimes my confidence sucks, but othertimes I have the ego of Kanye West.
I think my personality just down right rules. To be honest, I love how I act. I love my interests, I love the way I talk, I love how I know random crap. I realize that…
We’ve talked about this. This is how I feel about my music taste; I like the fact that I...
I don’t really know.
I’m just, really confused. about everything. and it’s not the annoying, aggravating kind of confused,
It’s more of the, “what?” kind of confusion. I don’t know.
I FEEL ignorant.
I need to learn when to shut my fucking mouth.
Dear ex girlfriend (A.L.),
stop talking to my ex-girlfriends.
thanks.
sincerely,
your ex boyfriend.
I’m back from florida. and I’m recognizing more and more that everyone is the fucking same.
I’m sitting in biology right now, and I just hate how everyone here is the same. I landed in the same fucking day as I left. everyone says the same things, looks the same way, talks about the same things, and just go through the motions. but they don’t care. so I guess it...
I’m getting to that point again, where I hate everything, and just want to sit silently in a room with people. i hate it, and I want out.
I hate how i need people. I hate my desire, for people. I wish I was strong enough to not be dependent on any, one person, at any given time. I really want to be 100% emotionally independent. but that just doesn’t happen, when you’re zack...
days 3+4 of 6
Wavering Radiant-Isis
this house is perfect to just chill out at. I love the feeling I get from being here. I hate how badly I want to go home just for band practice though. I want to be prepared for those shows so badly though.
anyways, yeah. florida is fucking sweet. I don’t know what else to say about it.
I hate tourism. I hate tourists. I hate touristy things. I hate all of it.
I just want to be in florida; not what they want me to buy in florida.
hey.
you’re really, really awesome.
srsly.
okay, bye.
day 2 of 6.
Thrice-the alchemy index Vol. 3 Air
The ocean is awesome. walked so far, and it’s so shallow. built a kickin’ sand castle/tunnel thing with my sister. fuck yeah.
I like it here. I wish it was me and my friends though. it would be so much more badass. but, that’s alright.
writing is really easy when you’re in a different place. I think when I can, I want my band to...
you’re such a fucking idiot. you know what is going to happen, and yet, you fucking go for it. You are someone I look up to, completely, and you do this? we even talked about how you weren’t going to let it happen again.
fuck that dude. you’ll feel it again, and you’ll regret it, again.
L.P.
A.L.
awful.
(vague because of the fact that it’s public)
the more and more I see how people actually are, in their everyday life, and in their private minds, I just see how completely normal people are, and completely the same people are. No one is different from one another, and it’s kind of disappointing. I am sick of the lack of variety in people. I’m so sick, of everyone listening to the same music, wearing the same clothes, thinking...
I like how things are moving. I don’t know what to expect, but everything is going well. I don’t want it to end, and i don’t want you out. not for a long time. You are too good. I’m just some kid in a band that doesn’t do anything but play guitar and wish he was dexter. (The blood splatter analyst serial killer, not the one with the luh-bor-uh-tor-ee) You’re...
Day 1 of 6.
explosions in the sky - How strange, innocence
Florida is something else. I haven’t been here in 10 years. everything is how it is supposed to be. The white sand, with the clear water. the sand stuck to my feet and my hair dried from the salt water. I need this. I have needed this. I wanted this.
I am happy. I’m glad I am here, and i wouldn’t want it any other way....
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what is your goal by the end of summer?
I’d like to, the the end of summer,my band’s EP recorded at a studio. that would be, to me, a goal that would make me feel like I accomplished something.
Ask me anything
ask me anything.
http://www.formspring.me/zackis
it seems like whenever I get involved with someone, they always get really fucking sad and unhappy. like, they’re totally cool before they meet me, then all of the sudden, they’re a lifeless shell, that just…hates everything, or just feels alone all the time.
I feel really bad about it, because I feel like it’s my fault for some reason. like, they don’t know it,...
“If I let you, you would make me destroy myself. But in order to survive you, I...”
– Henry Rollins
tomorrow.
I will be in florida.
fuck yes.
